Is Ignorance Really Bliss?

And the saga continues....

I went back to the hematologist this past week for a check-up on my platelet count. My platelet count has stayed about the same for the past three visits, so that's a good thing. It's still low, but at least it's not dropping! My doc says that, ultimately, the bone marrow biopsy is the only way to rule out any serious medical condition, but he doesn't think it's absolutely necessary right now. In his words, "There's about a 15% chance you have an underlying lymphoma that is not symptomatic, or it could just be ITP." UGH! The only way to rule out the lymphoma is to do the bone marrow biopsy, but he doesn't think the biopsy is absolutely necessary unless my platelet count drops again. He said that even if they found that it was a lymphoma, the treatment wouldn't change until it became more aggressive. SO, do you do the biopsy and rule out the worst case scenario....or do you do the biopsy and find out the worst case scenario and let it sit on you like a ticking time bomb, just waiting for it to go off? I almost think I am more of the "ignorance is bliss" kind of person on this one...I would love to find out that there is nothing there and I really do just have ITP, but the idea that I could find out I have cancer and can't do anything about it is unbelievably nerve-racking!

(On a side note, I did ask my doctor about how this all plays into pregnancy and he seemed to think that pregnancy is OK. He did recommend having the biopsy done first, but, regardless of the results, he said he felt like pregnancy is an option. So, I guess I'll have the biopsy after all...not looking forward to it, but I guess it'll be good to have some answers and hopefully, I'll get good answers!!)